L.o.v.e is B.l.i.n.d

2009-01-04T05:39:00.003+08:00

又是一个失眠的一晚。
2009年的第一个发表。

看了看我好友的部落各
他回忆了他在2008年的事
我想我也该式看看。

1。我失去了她，我的最爱。
2。我跑完了一中，第一次的马拉松
3。我开始喜欢上夜点，喝酒
4。我开始阅读橘子小说。
5。我很后悔，过了这一年

但时间无法到回，在新的2009 年，只好往前走下去。

我的2009 年的期望

1。快点当完兵
2。跑完2个马拉松
3。家人以朋友，健健康康，做事顺顺利利
4。开始读书（要用工！）
5。出国游玩
6. 她会开心

2008 年的最倒数，我是和朋友度过
很开心，玩的快乐
今年再来!

但我的好友的到一个不好的消息,
就希望, 他找到更好的! 加油!

2008 年我失去了她
刚开始,真的想死
伤心, 哭泣什么都有
时间慢慢留失
我们那份情,也慢慢溜走
你也毫无保留,就了你的生活
我原地踏步了好一阵子
可是,我想现在的我放下了
其实我很嫉妒,嫉妒你的他能让你比较开心
我也很为你开心,找到一个那么好的他 =)

人面对事情时,都有三部曲
他们需要面对
接受
放下

我想对于你,已经成了往事
留下的只是美好的回忆
以及你在我心中

很想谢谢,我朋友在我最失落的时候陪伴了我
他们填补我生活上的空缺
他们给我欢笑, 谢谢你们=)

我讨厌我,
讨厌我的懒惰
讨厌我的爱面子
讨厌我的不会珍惜
讨厌我自己的很多很多=(

希望2009年将会是个很好的一年,
事事会顺利.
加油!

2008-12-24T18:33:00.005+08:00

平安夜。
今天是很好的一天。
心情还好。
很懒散。
我的胃痛，脚底板也是。
感觉一点点寂寞。
还以为我习惯了。
其实我觉得，我是习惯了。
只是，觉得有一点不干。
不干在圣诞除夕里呆在家里。
哈哈，但其实是无所谓。

对了对了
和一位旧同事
聊了聊往事
去年的今天
我们在一起打工
（她）也在我餐厅吃晚餐。
哈哈。
只能说，往事只能回味

保佑我
能有天越过那片海岸线
保佑我
能有个巧合我们再遇见
保佑我
到最后还能认得她的脸
保佑我
她不会比我难过我希望她能比我更好过

祝大家圣诞节快乐。

2008-12-08T21:45:00.003+08:00

他妈的！
气！

气她们欺负欧宣
心痛他们打欧宣
可怜的月娘
只有陶姐是好人

走！烧了他们的屋子！

哈哈

2008-12-08T16:49:00.005+08:00

此时此刻心情是：开心的
感觉是：寂寞的
身体是：很痛得！！！

我以自己为荣
是全程是很辛苦
很难受，但跑完之后，会有一些些的满足感
到了30+KM，有了放弃的念头
但还是对自己说不能放弃
想想她，也是一种推动力
跑完之后，现在的感想虽然是很艰辛，但还是瞒好玩的
妈妈应该会以我为傲 =)
明年有2个！很想跑，要看有没有人一起陪伴参与
加油！

寂寞，所以，所有看到我这文章的人
记得多陪我，多发短讯给我哈哈

好今天就说到这里！
想念是一种回味 xD

2008-12-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

OMG its so late yet i haven slp! lol.s
ok i gonna grow fat by 3KG today at least!
TML is the day!
THAT very day!.
hope i burn out MORE FAT TML. + 3 kg today . -5 tml =D

hahaha. so late. i should slp soon! nights.
bless me my friend.
bless me . "you".

2008-11-28T02:18:00.011+08:00

能在这一天blog我觉得很特别。
应为此时此刻的我，身在兵营的办公室内哦。
又是一个失眠的夜晚，前晚是这样，今天也是。

幸好当我睡不着，想下来用用电脑时，
在值班的人还没睡，哈哈
我就很不好意思地跟他说我要用电脑，
人缘好是件好事，他也很乐意说行。

同样的夜晚，同样的心情，
前天，还好有涯雁陪我聊天，
她人好得不得了，终知道我的需要。
原本只想打扰她最多半个小时的时间，
聊着聊着变成两个钟头。
哈哈
在此我想和她说声谢谢
我们聊了很多问题
从感情到金钱再到周围的朋友
我还离谱到一度把雅雁的心情弄得很遭
我想应该有泪水吧，我真的感到内疚万分
你人那么好陪我聊天，我还弄到你流泪
真得很对不起，幸好到最后有开开一些小玩笑
还有介绍一位，很特别的朋友给她认识
名为“怪兽”，我们之间的秘密！哈哈一直到我不好意思再打扰她，才挂了线
再次想跟雅雁你说声谢谢

今天睡不着的我，有尝试打给好几个人
QianBao , Nicholas , Jennifer,Felicia和雅雁。
我也很不好意思吵到他们，尤其是雅雁。
她没睡，在玩游戏，就是好意思吵到她。

可是你也不可原谅！！！
宁愿玩游戏也不配我聊天！
哈哈

我发现，我很喜欢看9pm的戏 - 小娘惹
我觉得故事和大长今很相像
很精彩，只不过故事进展速度稍微慢了点
如果欧宣在戏里不是残缺人士会更好
虽这角色对她将会很有挑战性
是个聋哑，全只能靠肢体和脸部表情来发挥
但我还是觉得如果她能说话会比较好 =）

橘子系列 - 唱给火星人的十首情歌
正在阅读当中
诉说一名男子的爱情过程
其中有着好友的姐姐，以及姐姐的好朋友（因该是这样吧，还没读完）
当中有一段话我很喜欢
可是书现在在我床上，下次在写出来给大家参考参考
进展 - 40%左右，应该多2-3天就能读完了吧（不包括星期五，六，天和在家的时间）
哈哈

马拉松倒数 - 8天 20小时！

时间很快，三点了我想我应该上楼式着入眠
明天630还得起身开枪库
晚安了大家！！

我怀念着的. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

2008-11-24T12:17:00.003+08:00

好久好久没有blog了。
我想应该有一个月了吧。
是我懒惰，是我不好。

哈哈，这一个月过得很忙。
也认识了几位新的朋友。
是是，我在一个星期内去了喝了4-5 次酒。
大半次都在发电厂。哈哈

老实说，并不是很开心。
只是喝酒，能忘记一切。
它能让你暂时忘记一切烦恼，和伤心的事。
让你暂时麻醉。哈哈
我知道很天真，可是它真的有这个作用。

对了，
马拉松快到了，13天。
有没有人愿意去为我加油？
请通知我一声。哈哈。
我会很乐意欢迎你们的。
我会努力跑完全程的。
为了你，为了我。为了大家。

前两天，很忙很累，
可是我很开心。
作了两天暂时工。赚了些小钱。
工作时间长，工钱也不多，
可是觉得很满足。
认识了很多新人，新的朋友。
过了好开心的两天，
回想起，我好喜欢做工。
做工很忙，时间过很快，
你不会有空闲的时间，去想你不该想的东西。

十二月要到了，新年要来了。
很期待，应为十二月我方假。
哈哈！
期待我的马拉松赛跑。
期待圣诞节的来临。
期待chalet。
期待过年！
期待暂时性，长期不用回兵营。

Hey～我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里
Hey～我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你
如果没有你没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你我在哪里
又有什么可惜反正一切来不及
反正没了自己
Hey～我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

仔细听了，还会感到伤心。
不用怕，慢慢来。

2008-10-25T03:24:00.003+08:00

这个星期过得好艰难，5天都留在兵营里
日子过得很慢，不好过
可是今天到家后，上网看看
回到自己的簿落格，看到有人留言
感到一点开心，

首先有鱼小姐（阿老），
再来有陪我留在巴士等待奇迹出现的雅雁小姐，
最后最后，是一个千金难买的知己。
哈哈
看到你们的留言，谢谢你们。

一个故事的结束就是另一个故事的开始
你已经向你人生的另外一个阶段出发
我知道很傻，我是真的为你开心
希望你会快乐
我知道我也应该起步，我一直都在尝试
我很努力，虽是没什么进展
我会加油，可能时间是最大的关键
慢慢来吧

有时我真的在想，大多素的人是不是很少回头看
看看你成经走过的路程
我回头想了一想，我的过去，
有后悔，有遗憾，有悲伤
有欢喜，有快乐，有甜蜜
我没好好珍惜一些应该去珍惜的人/东西
却反而珍惜了一些没用的东西。
遗憾

今天又是另一个25号
第25个月了
数字真巧
没话说了，心情不佳。

想念也是另一种爱。

2008-10-19T03:49:00.002+08:00

懒散的我好久没更新我的簿落格了。
或许说没有什么好说的吧。

心情还是一样，没什么大的转变。
今天我去理发，
当那位员工在帮我洗头，为我按按摩时，
你，对是你，在我脑里出现。
我回想起，以前我是如何帮你按摩。
你做工繁忙，背不好，每次都说你背痛，背酸。
虽然每次当我帮你按摩时，都会抱怨说你没帮我按摩。
但我心只想你舒肤，好好休息。
喜欢看你被按摩后，所露出的一丝丝微笑，看了我也开心。

But I'm not gonna let you down
darling, wait and see
And between now and then
'til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me.

猜猜什么歌？

我要隔离自己。

2008-09-26T00:53:00.004+08:00

很问你，知到今天是什么日子吗？
虽然我知道,答案并不重要,
但是我还是想问你这个问题.

很有意义的一天.
本来是我们两周年纪念.

2008-09-25T14:03:00.003+08:00

不知，此时此刻的你现在在哪？
会不会想起我，那片刻就已足够。
我还在挂念你。

2008-09-24T22:48:00.004+08:00

今天，表面上是一个很普通的一天。
但，这天原本应该是一个很特别的一天。
对你。对我。

可是，人生难以预料，你不知道明天会发生什么事。
今天。我们应该一起度过，一起在外面。
一起庆祝那本来对我们很特别的一天。
一起在一起，共度我们在一起的第730天。

失望，难过，悲哀，哭泣。
这些是我的感觉。
我不知道该说什么。
心里的在想什么，我也不清楚。
我只知道，我还在想你。

我们两，你和我一起相遇。
我们约定好一起前往未来。
说好了一起，我们两。
一起称踏幸福巴士前往我们的地点。
你和我，一起走到巴士站。
原本一起等待，幸福来的我们。
突然间，
人生往往出乎预料，
在巴士站等待幸福到来的我们，
突然间，你就跳上了一辆来历不明的巴士。
留下我一个人，很孤单。
你放弃了和我一起等待，放弃了前往未来。
上了巴士的你，我不知道你在哪里。
你可能以在另一个巴士站，和另外一个他，
等待你们的幸福，前往你的自己的“未来”。
不只离开的你，会不会回头，看看或想想我。
现在独自在车站的我，不知所措。
没了你，没了我们的未来，没了幸福，也没了自己。
迷茫的我，尽量在想想看我心里到底在想什么。
坐在车站的我还在等，不知道等什么。
等你吧。
真的好想你。

很爱很爱你所以愿意
舍得让你往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心

2008-09-21T10:04:00.004+08:00

大家好，今年你们的中秋节过得好吗？
对于我来说，我过了一个很平淡的中秋节。
没吃到半粒月饼，也没庆祝，
还甚至望了中秋节是在几时。
直到我想去买月饼时，才发现原来太迟了。
狼狈到，需要找朋友来给我月饼吃，天大的笑话。

在回兵营的路上，看见很多人很开心地在玩烟火，蜡烛。
一时之间，有了一些些的羡慕，以寂寞。
第一时间，想到的是你，好想跟你一起度过这佳节哦。
其实，我有很多很多话想说，但不知从何说起。

船到桥头自然值，一切就顺其自然吧。
我不知道我有没有说过，对于你，我感到开心，又难过。

开心的是，我知道现在的你过得很好。
我知道你现在很开心，会找到很好的幸福。
我是真正希望你快乐。

难过的是，我怕，害怕你会忘了我。
我怕你的下个唯一，对你不好。
我怕你没照顾好自己，没用工读书。
难过的是，在你身边陪你度过一切的以不再是我。

我是很想跟你聊天，但我知道很难。
今时不同往日，难有一个好机会了。
我想再一次见见你甜美的脸，更难。

如果你有机会看到我所说的，我只想对你说些话。
我知道你的心以没有容纳我的地方。
我没要求很多很多，我只想知道你过得好吗。
有时能和你闲聊，知到你的状况就够了。
这样一来，能知到过的开不开心。
我我我还在想你。

能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

2008-09-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

新歌上榜。
另一首我听了很喜欢的歌。

两首不同的歌曲两种不同的旋律。

带着同样的心情同样的意思。
同样的悲伤以伤感。
每一字，每一句都渐渐地表达我的心声。

我想你。

2008-09-07T17:34:00.005+08:00

感觉上我很像很久没update了。
这整个星期过得还好，没发生什么大件事。

还记得在上个星期的NIKE Human Race 时，我有了一些感触。

还记得当我一个人在跑事，心想，如果有你在我身边陪我，

就算这十公里的路程，我走也会走的很开心。

如果能和你手牵着手走完，那是多开心的事。

在星期三，我做了个梦。

应梦里面有你，有我，我们在一起。

那事个很甜，很美的梦，我记得当我刚醒事，

我还坐在床上傻笑了十秒之久，但梦始终是梦。

之后我还抱着一点点的失望，笑着骂自己天真。

天真，妄想。

有时我在路上走，或是在我们去过的地方

我都会东张西望,希望能在人海茫茫中,看到你

看见你那我想见的脸孔.

我知道是不可能的事,但我还事这样作了

天真之举动二

这次就说到这吧.谢谢大家耐心的阅读.

我想吃烧鸭. 哈哈

2008-09-01T13:26:00.006+08:00

我的任性，我只能跟我周围的朋友说声对不起。

今天是你的生日，而在你身边陪你庆祝的不是我，有一些些的遗憾。
但我还是要祝你生日快乐。
我想，你应该没事了吧，已经往前走了吧。
希望你的下一个他，能对你好，给你快乐，给你幸福。
你记得要快乐，好吗？

Ran the Nike Human Race yesterday. Nth much. Nice run
The nicest thing is i saw YangYang and we ran together throughout the race.
Missed those old days. , took few picture with them, will upload then i got the picture.
Nqb injured himself, take care ok, recover soon.

天气阴阴的，心情也是沉重的。

因为，有些人，错过了就是错过了　　　　　　　　　　　　而你，则是我，不愿错过的那个人。

2008-08-30T07:07:00.011+08:00

我应该开始学着如何站起来，但我不行。
我应该慢慢小心翼翼从新振作，但我办不到。
我应该学着如何成长，但我不会。
我应该别再卦念着过去，而式着想像未来，但我不能。

好久好久没有这伤心了，自从零一年吧。
你是第二个让我如此难过的女人。
我没后悔爱过你，也没后悔爱上你。
我只是感到有一些些的遗憾，我没能和你一起走到最后。
我觉得感叹的是，我没能给你你所应有的幸福。
我曾说过，要给你很多很多，你很久没得到的幸福，但我没法遵守我的承诺。
我曾说要带你去很多很多的地方，给你快乐，可是我没机会了。
我曾说以后我们家要有你喜欢的东西，养你喜欢得狗狗，可是这承诺也无法完成了。
我每次说找到我这种这样好的男朋友是你的好运，但是现在我收回这句话。
还记得第一次从兵营里出来时，我们是多莫的粘着。

因游戏，我俩有缘相遇。
在游戏里，我俩有缘认识对方。
在误打误撞的情形下，我俩有机会接近对方。
而在爱神丘比特的选择之下，我俩相爱了。
能够和你在一起，我很的觉得好幸福。

我还记得，我第一次试着牵你的手的情形，那画面很好笑，很温馨。
你所喜欢的一切我都切切记在心里，你所不喜欢的我都尽量不做。
你难过的时候，我也和你一起感到难过。
还记得有一次因一些事儿不开心，我好担心，工作也不去，直奔你家是为了看看你状况。
也因此才会有detergent的诞生。
我总喜欢你那带笑的脸孔，很温馨，同此我也能却定，和我在一起你是开心的。
我不会忘记你很喜欢用dar dar来激怒我，让我吃醋。
你曾说过我是比dar dar重要，听了我真的很开心。
你也曾说过，要和我一起度过每一次的情人节，但很遗憾地说，我想是没这机会了。
还记得我们常你家附近荡秋千吗？好怀念那段日子。

我怀念的是你的笑容
我怀念的是你的身影
我怀念的是你的声音
我怀念的是你的温柔
我怀念的是你的关心
我怀念的是你的天真
我怀念的是你的可爱
我怀念的是你的甜美
我怀念我们一起度过的每一天
我怀念的是你的一切一切。

我们的故事是在二零零六年九月二十五开始，而在二零零八年七月十一日告个了断。
在那在一起的六百五十五天，或是一年九个月又十六天，我真过的很开心。
因为有你。
这些日子以来，我过的很开心，很满足，很幸福。
有你在我身边，我总觉得很安心，很快了。
谢谢你给了我这么美好的回忆。

如果时间能再来，我会再选择爱上你。
但在下一次我希望我能做个更好的男朋友。
我不知我们有没有机会重逢，但我希望我真的能再做一次你的男朋友。
再有一次能爱你，呵护你，关心你，给你幸福。
我真的很像你。

你是否也像我一样在想你。

坏天气，坏心情。

2008-08-30T06:22:00.004+08:00

原本还以为今天的心情很好，很开心。
谁知到，我不会解释，但我现在的心情是遭透了。
设么事都不想想，设么事都不想做，我的心好乱。
真的比死还难受，我想死。
当真。

23.

2008-08-25T16:33:00.003+08:00

23 a very nice and unique number ,

The starting date for LEO.
The jersey number for David Beckham.
The jersey number for Micheal Jordan.

Seem how suddenly i can't relate it anymore to other stuff.
well the number 23 is special for me TODAY.
if thing were the same we would be celebrating our 23 month tgt le.
duno if u still remember or you have forget about it.
my hearts feeling heavy , tears getting heavier.
my mind is empty , emotion is flowing.
time is ticking , second by second,
earth is revolving, round and round,
everything seems to be moving , yet i seems still struggling to move.
on date it seems long , in heart it seems like a yesterday thing.
i had a great fall , a painful and a real hard fall.
night without you is different, i tried to adapting yet i can't
life without you is different, someone important is missing
sat without you is different, no movie, no arnold, nothing
everything seem different, still trying . . . . . . hard

thank god i have friend around me. real nice friend.

Do you know?
if only we were still tgt today will be our

23 months together
100 weeks
700 days
16,800 hours
1,008,000 minutes
60,480,000 seconds

those number should be moving on increasing
but yet they stopped , staying still
suddenly remember 2 word , "someone else"
my heart ache , worst off than running ahm
pricked by thousand of needle , bang down by a 10 wheel truck
my mind went emptied , lost , sad , emotion-ed , heart breaking
were my feeling that time.

feeling superb emo . gg go airport to fulfill a agreement i made den book in.
hope u are doing well , smile more , i missed the way u always laugh .

I still misses YOU

Finisher of 21km AHM.

2008-08-25T12:35:00.002+08:00

Had a very good nice sleep last night! Wonderful , amazing , nice sleep! Ran 21km AHM yesterday , i <3 running more and more , my passion for running is there. The night b4 the run was funny , the whole bunk suppose SLP at 8pm , yet till 11pm lots of us are still awake and ended up have to play PS2 to make ourselve tired. Lols Think i only manage to sleep at 1+ and very soon after at 2.45 my phone rang , my buddy gave me morning call. thanks so much =P.

Reach Padang at freaking 4am plus. Well it's my virgin participating such a big running event , was pretty amaze with how things are going and the amount of participant. The only bad thing is the muddy field, heart ache when my $135 shoe sink slightly in those muddy spot , lols.

Flagged off at 6.30 ba , ran most of the run all alone. The person i saw most is Cydric throughout the race. Yeah i ran finish the 21km wif FLU . Tmd while running still need to control my PI TI just in case they flow down lols , but maybe is because of the flu virus my stiches is on MC too. Didn't really have any problem running , everything was fine expect at the 19 to 20km mark was very very weak ( about to faint condition) , but luckily i didnt stop if not i woulden't have such a nice timing. Did it in > or = 2 hour time , just great to be a finish of 21km. Actually i can finish the race without stopping and so much will i must also thanks to "her" , been telling myself that "she" will be at the ending point , run for LIFE , run for myself and run for "her".

I need to thank NQB and his Ops Warrent to send me home with free transport till woodland. It's fast. hahas after that went home showered , change and went out to prepare the steamboat for my beloved - BUDDY TSQ! haha. was so so tired while preparing but luckily i manage to endure pass it . =)
I hope every who present enjoy the steamboat session ! Nqb , Cql , Tsq , Ozq , Yyw , Nhq and lady boss! My brother was there too , the clicking isn't hard pretty easy. Enjoed the dinner together with them and the gathering seem so warmly. lols.

Risked a little life last night sitting on Nqb car. =P maybe is the jerky and the aftermath of AHM made him feel sleepy that why he can't really drive smoothly. More drive more experience will be a good driver. jia you Nqb . Actually i envy those with license . lols ok. Shall stop here.

I <3 running

2008-08-23T15:46:00.002+08:00

Hurt , naive me . No one is the blame expect me. Sigh. I still need time , lots of it. superb emo afternoon for me.

2008-08-23T02:46:00.003+08:00

In Request of Mr NQB . Here's Mine

What Wong Teck Meng Means

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.You are confident, self assured, and capable.

You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

It's another day.

2008-08-23T01:05:00.002+08:00

Well today is another day. Went out to meet my poly friend , saw them meet up chat chat and dig out some happy old past memories. =D Yesterday was my buddy birthday. Once again i wished her a Happy Birthday Buddy!

Was feeling sick these few days. Started with fever of 37.8 degree on Wed , den to sore throat on Thus and lastly flu on Friday. Damn bad , It's been long since i really feel so sick and so weak. >.<>

Went out for a run with QB & Kenneth. It was a fruitful and fun run , didn't really run with fast pace but did try pushing during the last part of the run. With the mindset of " She's waiting at the ending point" , that's always motivate me to push myself hard. Stiches still come after me today shortly after starting running , bad but manage to overcome it in the end.

Discover something amazing on thus , saw her shoutout @ friendster = my background song. It was so coincidence ! Really , the lyric is the same as the song which i like alot. I discover this song orginally from another person blog , but didn't expect her to get to know this song too. I wonder is she feeling the same she wrote on her shoutout. It really made me wonder , to me i DO feel that way. I hope she does feel that way too. Feel like trying but fear , fearing of what the outcome may be. I Miss You =)

To the very last of the post , oh ya wished to thanks my best friend NQB for introducing chinese novel to read , it's nice meaningful shall post some quote from the book next time .

42.195 .

2008-08-20T20:46:00.002+08:00

O.o very long nv update liao. Actually i wonder is there anyone reading my blog anot. Lols Pretty plan week , feeling sick now.
3 Up coming run.

21/08/08 - Army Half Marathon 21KM
31/08/08 - Nike Human Race 10KM
07/12/08 - Standard Charter Full Marathon 42.195 KM

Was quite reckless to sign up straight for the 42km marathon without any thinking. Now doubting myself whether i can finish the race anot but heck . I really <3 running.

Wat to say. I still have Emo night. Sleepless Night . Boring night . etc etc i duno why i just can't get to sleep every night. I am trying very hard , really all my friend , trust me ok? Give me a little bit more time . I think i can do it. But till that time arrive , i still missed her. Sigh!

2008-08-17T03:54:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Boon Yong 21th brithday chalet , have a fun time there seeing lots of my secondary friend. Those were the days. Had a breaking record , played 6 or 7 round of mahjong thru the night , around 16 hour ba. loLx. Only sleep for like 2 hour for these 2 days. Have a little drink just now , good enjoy kinda love wab ppl =) find them easy going.

So qiao that i saw Jin Xing ( Xm best friend) at the chalet too! Asked Jx how is she doing , and is she happy anot. Think she is happy now ba. yahx , i really hope she is happier than before. Sigh.

Nth much. Need to exercis more. =) I need a wider circle of friend. anyone to intro their friend to me? lols =) tks everyone for reading =P my boring blog.

2008-08-11T15:49:00.002+08:00

Short Simple post.
Bad weekend , was called back for yesterday's guard duty thanks to somemore.
Feeling extremely emo now. Nothing Much bad day. Sweet and Sad Memories
Hope she is happy right now. =\

I misses YOU. I really did.

You made the Run possible.

2008-08-07T11:29:00.001+08:00

Well , well its been so long since i updated , so much things happened to me on these few days. Lets start from

5-8-2008 Tuesday

This is the one of the most depressing , sadden and emoed night that i have. Seriously, i was stunt , dumb and don't know what to react really. Maybe i shoulden't have get back home and online so i won't be happened to see the message.

6-8-2008 Wednesday

Oh ya , mentioned that i was home last night , was given permission home because i was representing my unit for a cross country run ^^ , only 3 from our companywas selected for the race i was one of them together with 2 other ( qing lun and Gabriel ) totalled up to 6 from our whole unit. Went Macritchie at 1pm , my first time running over there.

Today i ran with a mindset very different from what i used to tell myself ," Normally i would tell myself to run on pace which i think i can complete the route." but for this race i started with a quite a face pace. Didn't really think i can finish it with my starting speed. Luckily i tried forcing myself and the thought of " She's waiting at the ending point , WTM u can do it , if u wanna see her just continue and don't stop!!!"

Overall run result is good , of the whole division ( around 150+ people) i ran on 73 placing. 1 behing Qing lun . Quite a happy result for the 5KM run with a timing of 20 min. Quite a nice timing i did for myself and i saw horrbile people running with only 15 min 26 sec. I really wonder how they did that , but neverless content with my own result. Heres some picture taken.

The 6 of us from our unit.

The 3 Representative from our company.

Thanks to you. I believed in finishing the race fast and I will be able to see u at the ending point. =) You made me finish it with such a remarkable timing which I am so proud of myself too.

2008-08-04T19:53:00.000+08:00

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When it's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
My love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

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If you wander off too far, I'll be there for you.
If you follow the wrong star, I'll be there for you.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
I'll be there for you.
Ger, I'll be there for you.

If the bright lights blind your eyes, 'll be there for you.
If your troubles break your stride, I'll be there for you.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
I'll be there for you.
Ger, I'll be there for you.

If you ever feel ashamed, I'll be there for you.
When it's only you to blame, I'll be there for you.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
I'll be there for you.
Ger, I'll be there for you.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me,
I'll be there for you.
Ger, I'll be there for you.
Ger, I'll be there for you.

Ok i admit pretty bored in camp thus i did this. Here for the link of the video.
actually , just find this song meaningful. Hope my friend enjoy =D.

2008-08-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

hihi all , haha in camp now ok and i took the effort to come and blog! ok maybe its the starting that why i am so hardworking , maybe in the later date thing will be different. MAYBE . . .

Today is just another pretty normal day with nothing much happen . OK! the 10km run, i ran a timing of 57min (pretty slow) but pretty happy cause i don't feel real exhausted after the run but i think injured my right ankle, feeling painful every now and then when i walk.

Didn't really have enough sleep last night , think i slept only at 4+ am. Was smsing NQB and had a slight chat wif jenno. Well just wanna say to my dear friend out there , sorry. I know i am being stubborn , i know some of you care for me but I just can't let go or rather i don't wish to let it go. She is just so IMPT to me already , I know the outcome will be nothing but I just don't wish to give up. It may sound dumb , foolish to some of you. OK! I admit , i am foolish , i am dumb. I know it's xin ku and suffering but i just wanna have her in my heart. Just wanna say.

I miss you!

2008-08-03T18:37:00.006+08:00

Bad day today , just came back from dinner at 768. Discover that my favourite Yong Tau Fu is gone >.< . Think most probably closed down le ba , didn't know they changed new stall owner and dumbly tried the new stall.
- bad service attitude
- was FORCE to pick 7 type of ingredient
- the laska gravy sux and comes with weird taste
- cost me a total of $4.50

yet i didn't finish everything , was so disappointed , wanna avoid wasting the money and forcing myself to finish only the ingredient but in the end i gave up. Very disappointed , i think i only eat 1/4 of the whole bowl. To anyone reading this , don't ever eat the Yong Tau Fu @ 768 ok! Misses the old style which they fry your ingredient on the spot to have the crispy feel xD. Anyone know of any Ytf stalls that does that now?

Gonna book in soon , leaving home early today cause will be making a trip down to Novena to collect Ernest running shoe for him. Did particularly nothing much , boring person with a boring life blogging a boring blog and poor u reader reading my boring blog xD.

Missing those old time when i would call her and asked "Should i eat Mac or Long John for dinner ar"? Normally she would scold me for disturbing her with such lame question and make a quick decision for me , but at 70% of time , the ending choice of mine will be different from the choice she choose for me. lols there i get scolded again for asking and end up choosing another. =( I felt quite sad too , the Yong Tau Fu was her's and my favourite. Perhaps that fate ba , I'm still not quite use to not having u around , wondering how are you doing? Are you happy and enjoying ur life now? Will you forget about me? >.<

2008-08-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

Today is a SAT , didn't anything much for today . Went out for a movie , some strolling around small tiny SINGAPORE. Feeling pretty bored , so decided to update a little while watching soccer ( Arsenal vs Juv ). My fav Arsenal is losing 0 - 1 >.<KELONG lineman which allows a clear OFFSIDE goal from Juv. Damn it! lols

Think I'm too used to being occupied and going with her on my every SAT. It makes me don't feel like staying home on sat nowadays. Went movie @ Plaza Sing, watched Money Not Enough 2.
- A pretty typical Singapore home-made movie which reflects the behaviour and mindset of singaporean? ( In my opinion)
- A very funny show which laugh me off . =)
- Few sad scene which bring me some sad memories which made me shed tears >.<
- A ridiculous >20 yr old girl act as a 25 yr old doctor

overall i would rate it 3.5 /5 for the whole movie itself but 4.25 /5 for the joke in the movie ^^.

Yahx saw huiying (Cousin from my mother side) today! Its quite unexpected , normally i would get to see her only once per year ( CNY period ). Met up with Ernest in the evening , he's getting a running shoe , went New Balance at RC and he got a pair of 1224 ( awesome)! I would like to get that pair too, but upon trying i find the arch support kinda pain for my feed , maybe will be going for a pair of 768 for my AHM run =).

Karen Mok - Ru Guo Mei You Ni. This song leave a very deep impression in my heart , maybe it explain my feeling , the lyric is meaningful. I just loves this song , really. Well enough of my crapping , hope you reader don't find my blog boring =) . Nights

My 1st post.

2008-08-01T22:47:00.001+08:00

Hello all! This is my very 1st post of the blog , acutally i was thinking do i really need a blog? Will i update it regularly even i have a blog? Lots of question flooded my mind but eventually a conclusion came to my mind which a blog will first allows me to complain , whine about everything here without having to hear negetive comment which i don't wish to get . Secondly i won't like have to disturb friends of my , keep disturb and irritate them . hahas i think it's sooner or later i'll get black listed by them.

Today i ran a 14 Km run , complete it in 76min , quite happy with my own result and also manage to convince MO (Medical Officer) to allow me to participate in the upcoming 21km AHM run in which my medical status only allow me to run only 6km( wtfs !) lols. Think i didn't do enough warm up end up causing a bit of aching on my leg ( painful >.<) . But hope it recover by Monday as there will be a 10Km run which i don't wish to miss. Life have been bad for me these 2 days , having sleepless night and the blog of those 2 person (Wen & the gf of the Brunei ICT) touches me the most , tears shed , feel heart ache for them but there's nothing i can do to help . Life is unfair ! Yahx just hope that life will be better for them at the on-coming future. Actually i am feeling v v STRESS, worrying about lots of stuff too much to be mention . Just hope thing to get better.